Dis-Closure

Had a disclosure or closure, of sorts with my boss last week when she finally sat down with me to talk about her impending departure, as well as to clarify some of the comments i had made previously in our dept meeting regarding lack of choice in doing some of the work. Found out that she actually knew about leaving at the end of last year but as she explained it, i could also see why she would not be able to share or tell us about it due to her position as the HOD. Guess i am more or less not as worked up as before, and despite some slightly 'brain-less' comments, she did give quite a lot of reasonably good advice on taking a more senior position and what the work will entail. So for that, i am grateful because it did helped to clarify some issues of which i had some doubts in.

Of course, she does have an agenda for suddenly wanting me to take the job and also nudging me to make certain stand in what she believes in. I also had to play my part in allaying her fears regarding those issues and bide my time before showing my stance. A little of a mind-game to be played but then, it is just being prudent not to show some people what my views are at this moment especially when everyone is suddenly clamoring to be your friend and singing your praises. I still think its mightily insulting that people do not think that you can have your own mind and stand firm to your own principles but i do not see why i need to prove anything at this point. Once i am in that position, i will make that position my own. The rest of them... well, they could think what they want at this moment. Hopefully, they wouldn't be in such a big surprise when i get on the job.

As for my soon-to-be-ex-boss, it is really out of her hand how i want to play the game once she is gone, and most certainly, it would not be just blindly following where she thinks i ought to go (i.e. such as being in line with her appointed 'next-in-command'). I think the 'next-in-command' has anticipated that i might be my own free agent especially when it comes to propagated their agenda, hence all these calls regarding 'unity' and 'speaking in same voice' before a big meeting (of which my boss was been rather callously left out of). Next half of year should be interesting...